I have started to have the most terrible doubts about all of this. There is no one I can talk to here and any attempt to put this into a letter now would be utterly fruitless (redaction) and probably land me a court-martial too. I have only been privy to rumors and whispers but, my rank guarantees the quality of these to some degree, and they are enough. If we are doing this, are our enemies doing the same? God in heaven, what are we all going towards? I fear they're may be nothing left for our children. God, what a terrible mess of everything we have made.